What I Said In the First Place

Is this what I actually
sound like? I don't sound like
me at all. And that actually
makes me a little happier
then I probably
                              should be.
My voice sounds so
fake. I want it to stay
this way. So that I can
sound fake all the time.
It makes me feel more
devious then I probably
                              should be.
In my head, when
I think to myself,
I know that I'm talking,
but, there isn't really any
sound at all. Maybe that's because
                              I don't really have a voice.
Little does anyone know
that I speak a lot more
in my head, then I do
out loud. They think I talk
                              a lot now...!
I don't like talking out
loud anyways. I like inside my
head more. But, sometimes
I have an urge to type or
write out my thoughts, and
then it gets hard to remember
                              what I said in the first place.